Had drinks and a wonderful catch-up with an old friend. I’ve always admired her sexy sense of independence. Think samantha from sex and the city but all the good aspects. She’s brilliant and beautiful, so is anyone good enough for her? We just want each other to be happy.

one time a different girl friend and i spent the day drinking in manhattan beach. Except it was cold and windy; we were wearing leather jackets. We enjoyed lots of beer and cocktails footsteps away from the ocean. We had sushi for dinner then went home. A couple of nights later, I stopped by her apartment and met her husband for the first time. He said something like, “oh so you’re the one who brought my wife back home drunk.” I laughed because it was funny how much of a good time i can be. I didn’t think he was truly upset or unhappy. in less than two months he filed for divorce. Much time has passed so I’m sure they’re both much happier now.

People take different paths to happiness. They aren’t one-way streets—you can go either way. You can high block and low block.

Grateful for influential women, vodka, all the Jen’s, the other woman, insomnia, breakups, freaky Friday, cousins, texts, weekend plans, bagels, feeling strong.

1:59 am.

Another great day even though I was tired. Good work, good dinner, good nap, good company, good workout. All gốôđ!

grateful for penicillin, Positive people, good hair, we, flowers, wine pairings, night life, self-confidence, Chinatown, sleeping under the stars, Cambodians, no commercials, how far I’ve come, easy street, honesty, authenticity, golden kindness.

1:25 am.

A great day and night. Work was chill and then watched devil wears Prada in bed. Imagine tons of popcorn, ice cream sundaes, candy, and champagne.

the plan was to try to sleep early tonight, but changed my mind. Imagine that too.

grateful for quiet time, neighbor visits, raspberries, snooze button, online shopping, my mom, and beautiful like you.

1:50 am.

I’m proud of myself because even though I’m old and tired and have to wake up early for a corporate job, I go out and do fun stuff all the time.

Tonight the bestie neighbor treated me to a delicious dinner (still milking the birthday celebrations). Her gold hoop earring fell out of her ear lobe and rolled onto sunset blvd directly under a parked car. We crouched and used our phone lights to look for it. It couldn’t be reached with human arms. The bouncer ran and got a broom. She swept it out and all was fine.

grateful for pei oysters, Los Angeles, 7am meeting canceled, Primus at the Greek, sore muscles, hot weather, fun plans, best friends, Der fluggen, Friday, nourishing food, cool car, loving family, dog friendly, Alexa, my spinal cord, Janet wood, you, them, us.

1:43 am.

I’ve been lost in my world. It feels like my feet haven’t touched the ground in days. Sorry I haven’t returned your calls or texts. I forgot how things work.

Does that sound bad or good? It’s been very good. I mean gốôđ.

Grateful for my cousin from Texas, joyhogging, heavy cues, all my mayorships, magician, sour beer, my Job, korean food, Denzel, ai, my location, dreams, luxome, mean girls, south pas tigers, the cards I was dealt.

1:18 am.

A nice hot and sunny day.

had lunch with sunhye at the K spot. What a beautiful and talented person. She made me the cutest ceramics. Some people are good at everything. She can do it all—science, art, Tetris, bouldering, cooking, pottery! But Me…well, I can drink espresso from the adorable little mug she handcrafted. But with joy. And I’ll spread it.

friday finally. This was a long week. Work is getting busy and i need to execute some administrative plans. Is it weird that they trust me. quit skating and you too can become an adult. and yes, adults drink forties.

Grateful for true friends, messages from Eddie, Not needing stuff, long nail beds, nighttime phone calls, Pilates, strength, and healing.

1:24 Am.