i’ve never really been good at anything. Some people i know just kill it—skateboarding, shooting pool, ceramics, painting, photography, hair styling, singing, etc. I can’t say I have any exceptional talent or skills. I’m a real good…person?

a long time ago on tv they were interviewing a hot import model. the question they asked her was, “what are you good at?” She had a hard time coming up with an answer, but she finally said, “I’m good at…shopping.” At the time I chuckled, but now I think that’s a legit response. Better than mine.

Grateful for jeopardy!, long hugz, monday night tourney crew, second place killer (again…), best dog, geraldine, vegan rigatoni, hangover, jacqui, my floors, street skateshop, coffee at night, bea + cj, good energy.

1:26 am.

Lately, I’ve been enjoying my job and enjoying my free time after work. I wouldn’t exactly call it a work-life balance, but we be funnin’.

shooting a lot of pool, cooking, and sleeping in. And everyone loves my dog.

grateful for tj’s herb chicken fridays, Christy, slippery shrimp, happy napper, second place killer, triple j to the max, lancet publication, my mom, 880, stocked fridge, abundance.

1:31 am.

i took a very long nap this evening. Shortly after I dozed off, my eyes opened suddenly because I thought I had to go to work. I knocked out so hard after that. I’ve been tired lately because of late nights, fatty meats, medical procedure, and procrastination.

i’m back on my skin care regimen. That includes leafy greens and berries. Tomorrow I’ll get a haircut finally. I look forward to having a lighter head.

grateful for meditation, rest, good test results, free delivery, the courtyard, FaceTime, sunshine, fantasy 5, chia seeds, tears.

1:33 am.

When our parents were in their late forties, did they ever drink beer, shoot pool, and play jeopardy! Until 4am on a work night? Juss askin’.

Everything is flying by. I can’t keep track of the months and all the celebrations. I make it sound like a problem but it’s pure joy.

grateful for my partner, mijares, cinco de mayo, april and may birthday peeps, dark-eyed junco, bmws, air fryer wings, too many things to list.

1:43 am.

I’ve been napping too good in the evenings and staying up too late. A vicious cycle.

the other day While walking my dog, An old man who lives in the tower next door looked at niko then asked, “what’s his name—vicious?” I keep thinking about how that kind of nice old-man personality will be extinct soon.

One of my exes’ email address was kidvicious at yahoo except he spelled vicious wrong because he was stupid. i was stupid too.

grateful for the absence of chaos, flick stick, lactose-free dairy products, rad apartment, selling stuff, finally Friday, stupid people, lunching outside, looking forward to seeing people, cj, gold light.

1:23 am.

I’ve been tired and my sleep’s all weird. Finally got the office set up. It’s the work room and workout room. I saw a lady with gorgeous sculpted biceps and I might try to get some. But not at this rate. Couch potatoed all night.

grateful for thocky keyboards, reflections, flor, my job, skyline views, accidental brownies, rest and relaxation, peace.

1:18 am.