I have been on vacation. I went to palm sprangs, la la land, heaven, and now I’m back.
yesterday we honored eddie’s one-year memorial. I was feeling fine though I know emotions can turn on a dime. I learned It can’t be predicted whether i’ll cry all messy or be okay. Turns out it wasn’t difficult; it was an amazing day. Family and friends—my favorite people—gathered at the cemetery. It was sunny and breezy and we shared memories and hugs in the shade of a tree. A deer had been watching. Afterwards, we went to the Mexican spot for food, laughs, and tequila shots. I know love was lost and it was big and it was sad, but by law it’s conserved. It’s constant and i feel it. And isn’t that what makes our existence (our lives and our deaths) so beautiful.
Like you.
grateful for all the thoughtful texts, my best friends, the perfect inscription, taking work off, adjustable dumbbells, hair of the dog, flan, el segundo, downtown Burbank, cake pops, Ben and Carrie, ritual supplements, summer weather, poolside, red roses, emotional intelligence, dole whip stand, support system, love in all forms.
12:45 am.
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