Category: LIVING

A couple of golden moments to report today. a friend called just to tell me three things. The phone call was less than a minute. She said: 1) she loves me; 2) she loves where her life is currently at; 3) she met someone and that person said they knew me. (We’re all connected; and…

i tried to make some good choices today. I promised I’d cook some healthy foods in my fancy little pan. I did so. It’s rad and my proteins came out great. But I did not eat much of it because my body didn’t want it. I exercised and i stretched. I drank a green drink….

Had a very fun and eventful weekend. Too many things and places to write about. We went to a couple of restaurants that I had been to one time in the past with eddie. I remembered that He had a hard time one way or another (eg, he got sick or he got mad) at…

I need to sleep so I can’t write much. There isn’t much to say. My little hexclad pan arrived today. I am in love with it. I will treat myself to the larger one the next time I do something bad. grateful for my birds, laughing at the weight I gained, the person who hugged…

not much to report tonight. I’m still tired and work has been super busy. I worked late while sipping wine so I didn’t mind so much. Later on, I stepped out for a cocktail. I cut the night short to help my bestie neighbor move a large box containing furniture. Happy to help—I have a…

I was pretty tired today. And when I’m tired I’m not as careful as I usually am. I forgot to turn off the stove. My rice scoop melted into the pan and the apartment filled with smoke and the smell of burnt plastic. Strangely, the smoke detectors didn’t go off. Wonder who replaced those batteries……

Six months since Eddie’s passing. we have come a long way. I used to call the unpredictable emotional days “bad” days, but I’m not going to call them that anymore. I realized that moments of having a spontaneous cry or taking a ride on a wave of sadness are when I’m most connected to eddie….

people ask what the hardest part about dating after losing eddie has been. the hardest part is that i’m not myself. I’m evolving, i’m a mess. shouldn’t even be up in this business. grief makes me selfish and reckless (we all grieve differently). i’m a bad version of myself and now i’ve been given this…

big news is that i rode my skateboard for the first time in a million years. People say it’s like riding a bike. It is not. I cruised around the outskirts of my neighborhood where the crackheads emerge and i felt off balance or that people were watching me (nobody was watching). overall, it was…

nightbirde’s new album dropped today. We listened to it on loop while we sipped our mango carts and loved the night. Like most people, eddie and I discovered her on agt. Jane passed away three years ago and I cried and felt the pain of those who loved her. This was before i even knew…

another wonderful day. friend invited me over for dinner. We ate fishwife on toast, her signature salad, and drank wine and fernet. The Fred jerbis one. This time I did not throw up on the sidewalk while waiting for a taxi. The child, who is almost five, called my hair “scary red” but was nice…

Eyelids are heavy. Today was such a wonderful day. But I will keep the details to myself. Grateful for laughing on work calls, the good bag of smackles, handwritten cards, ultra-rare downtown la hangs, my car, and all my money. 1:04 am.

I am tired and I need to wake up early for work. I wanted to write a post about dating because I’m doing it and people get surprised and have questions. But i didn’t know where to start. Ask me anything. Though The answers will most likely be: yescutelaughingno ideadrinksfew weeksconnectionno kidsBeige flagAsianglocknunya 2:10 am.

In my world, every day is Valentine’s Day. If you’re talkin’ Big Love, sweet words, good food, nice wine, phat jewels, red roses, fun gifts, dark chocolate—it’s all here. Everyday. My world is superb; I was loved truly. (Still am.) So I know how to do it. Welcome to my world. Look at all the…

so much can change in so little time. Checked my camera roll to see where I was and what was happening around this time last year. Eddie and I had just gotten the new, ultralight wheelchair. And we went to Catalina. We never really traveled or took trips together, so it was a big deal….

today was a day of good neighbors. Sunny’s mom stopped by after the community event for some wine and chit chat. Sent her home all nice and buzzy. later on, a different neighbor stopped by for Chit chat and laughs. Sent her home with some buzz too. I talked about the feeling of being free…

i felt pretty lousy today with all the coughing. Lungz is toasts. Canceled all my work meetings and dinner plans. I did some light cardio on the pelo bike to get some blood pumping through the system. a country music ride for the first time. Of course Chris Stapleton. It was nice and I felt…

happy Sunday night. My current status is that I’m recovering from a lower respiratory tract infection, overdosing on a certain grape-flavored cough syrup, late night slumber parties, sad news from siblings, and caffeine withdrawal. I’m so exhausted I can’t write more. 9:42 pm.

this is what I get for acting all bad in my doggles and thinking that I’m crushing the grief game. I had one of the hardest days in a long time. many tears. What happened to me. a message came through from eddie. The delivery was loud and clear (i heard his voice), but the…

people ask how I’m doing all the time. Usually it’s the older people who are most pleasantly surprised to hear that I am doing great. Because They wouldn’t be able to hang, take the shots, see the sun come up. Wouldn’t want to be in my shoes. We never felt our age. And I still…