Category: LIVING

I had that feeling again where i was so gratefully in love with the city that i live in. It was cold and windy, and i was dressed warm in wool like i had traveled all the way to Taos, but i was so close to my apartment. Sipped drinks and looked at rad art…

Thinking about the time in college when i hitched a long ride with a total stranger deep into central California to see propagandhi play. He had an extra ticket. The show was in the middle of a field. They played a medley. It was a bizarre night and i Never talked to that person again….

The neighbor upstairs texted asking if she could hammer a nail into the wall. At 9:30 pm. Love that she asked. We texted a bunch of hearts back and forth. Her’s purple. Mine were the teal ones. Love and kindness always wins. Still have never seen her before. I will invite her and her boyfriend…

Daylight saving time. Saw the sun come up this morning so i won’t be petty about losing an hour of sleep. Even though I just did. But yes, sunnier happy hours are in order. saw an actual portal today. A gorgeous ray of sun glittering with the particles of us. Daniel went through it! Never…

happy Saturday! I slept in this morning and now I’m two nespressos deep and feeling pretty great. Last night Saelee and Sylvia treated me to an amazing dinner and afterwards there was some really good and inspiring talk. I can’t believe it but I have girl friends now. And I’m not the weird one in…

it’s late. But I’m trying to be consistent with my writing here. Trying to follow through because once that’s gone, it’s done. I was so tired today. Could barely keep my eyes open while editing the car t-cell manuscript. Then a spontaneous dinner + drinks hang. That woke me right up. Someone said that I…

tonight secrets were spilled and new friends were made. I was told I look younger than my age. that never gets old but i do. Went to the bar where Jonah boy was working. A very Californian experience for my Canadian guest. None of my plans for fancy cocktails or gourmet burgers worked out for…

A couple of golden moments to report today. a friend called just to tell me three things. The phone call was less than a minute. She said: 1) she loves me; 2) she loves where her life is currently at; 3) she met someone and that person said they knew me. (We’re all connected; and…

i tried to make some good choices today. I promised I’d cook some healthy foods in my fancy little pan. I did so. It’s rad and my proteins came out great. But I did not eat much of it because my body didn’t want it. I exercised and i stretched. I drank a green drink….

Had a very fun and eventful weekend. Too many things and places to write about. We went to a couple of restaurants that I had been to one time in the past with eddie. I remembered that He had a hard time one way or another (eg, he got sick or he got mad) at…

I need to sleep so I can’t write much. There isn’t much to say. My little hexclad pan arrived today. I am in love with it. I will treat myself to the larger one the next time I do something bad. grateful for my birds, laughing at the weight I gained, the person who hugged…

not much to report tonight. I’m still tired and work has been super busy. I worked late while sipping wine so I didn’t mind so much. Later on, I stepped out for a cocktail. I cut the night short to help my bestie neighbor move a large box containing furniture. Happy to help—I have a…

I was pretty tired today. And when I’m tired I’m not as careful as I usually am. I forgot to turn off the stove. My rice scoop melted into the pan and the apartment filled with smoke and the smell of burnt plastic. Strangely, the smoke detectors didn’t go off. Wonder who replaced those batteries……

Six months since Eddie’s passing. we have come a long way. I used to call the unpredictable emotional days “bad” days, but I’m not going to call them that anymore. I realized that moments of having a spontaneous cry or taking a ride on a wave of sadness are when I’m most connected to eddie….

people ask what the hardest part about dating after losing eddie has been. the hardest part is that i’m not myself. I’m evolving, i’m a mess. shouldn’t even be up in this business. grief makes me selfish and reckless (we all grieve differently). i’m a bad version of myself and now i’ve been given this…

big news is that i rode my skateboard for the first time in a million years. People say it’s like riding a bike. It is not. I cruised around the outskirts of my neighborhood where the crackheads emerge and i felt off balance or that people were watching me (nobody was watching). overall, it was…

nightbirde’s new album dropped today. We listened to it on loop while we sipped our mango carts and loved the night. Like most people, eddie and I discovered her on agt. Jane passed away three years ago and I cried and felt the pain of those who loved her. This was before i even knew…

another wonderful day. friend invited me over for dinner. We ate fishwife on toast, her signature salad, and drank wine and fernet. The Fred jerbis one. This time I did not throw up on the sidewalk while waiting for a taxi. The child, who is almost five, called my hair “scary red” but was nice…

Eyelids are heavy. Today was such a wonderful day. But I will keep the details to myself. Grateful for laughing on work calls, the good bag of smackles, handwritten cards, ultra-rare downtown la hangs, my car, and all my money. 1:04 am.

I am tired and I need to wake up early for work. I wanted to write a post about dating because I’m doing it and people get surprised and have questions. But i didn’t know where to start. Ask me anything. Though The answers will most likely be: yescutelaughingno ideadrinksfew weeksconnectionno kidsBeige flagAsianglocknunya 2:10 am.