When our parents were in their late forties, did they ever drink beer, shoot pool, and play jeopardy! Until 4am on a work night? Juss askin’.

Everything is flying by. I can’t keep track of the months and all the celebrations. I make it sound like a problem but it’s pure joy.

grateful for my partner, mijares, cinco de mayo, april and may birthday peeps, dark-eyed junco, bmws, air fryer wings, too many things to list.

1:43 am.

I’ve been napping too good in the evenings and staying up too late. A vicious cycle.

the other day While walking my dog, An old man who lives in the tower next door looked at niko then asked, “what’s his name—vicious?” I keep thinking about how that kind of nice old-man personality will be extinct soon.

One of my exes’ email address was kidvicious at yahoo except he spelled vicious wrong because he was stupid. i was stupid too.

grateful for the absence of chaos, flick stick, lactose-free dairy products, rad apartment, selling stuff, finally Friday, stupid people, lunching outside, looking forward to seeing people, cj, gold light.

1:23 am.

I’ve been tired and my sleep’s all weird. Finally got the office set up. It’s the work room and workout room. I saw a lady with gorgeous sculpted biceps and I might try to get some. But not at this rate. Couch potatoed all night.

grateful for thocky keyboards, reflections, flor, my job, skyline views, accidental brownies, rest and relaxation, peace.

1:18 am.

i managed to be productive tonight. Listed some items on ebay and already made some sales. They say selling 10 tacos for a dollar isn’t smart business though. If someone purchases the roller ball mouse I’ll laugh.

was this a long week. My stomach says so.

grateful for orange star flowers, crazy Gideon, Fred rated, grand avenue, j&j, stuff, good cheekbones, strawberry sm00thie, crow friends, freakin’ weekend.

2:26 am.

Went out on a school night. Even had a shot of tequila. Yay me.

It’s chilly and I’m intoxicated by everything around me. I would choose this.

grateful for micheladas, Sam Binga, nofx, Laura, snacks, rose garden, Crying from laughing, cup-a-bug, almost the weekend, sweet person, Los Angeles, salt, flexible fat man, power of now, my brain.

1:36 am.

Small things have been bringing lots of joy. I set up a hummingbird feeder and now I have a tiny visitor every day all day.

a friend who I admire a lot invited me to a comedy music show. I wasn’t able to make it, but the invitation was what I needed.

And what about waiting 45 minutes for the best Russian shawarma. Why do we like that. Why do we like what we like.

sad men say the heart wants what it wants.

grateful for the taxes I have to pay, bali blinds, my work besties, nasal spray, curious crows, kitchen space, eBay, relaxing, bro dates, free coffee.

1:04 am.