Author: streetmadonna

It’s that time of year again when I think about moving/changing apartments. But I know I probably won’t be going anywhere Any time soon—Current place is expensive but worth it. And the birds still need me. OR I NEED THEM. Nothing major to report. I’ve been eating good, sleeping so-so, and funnin’ mucho. I almost…

It’s been eleven months since Eddie’s passing, which means I’ve already made it through all but one of the tough firsts. First Christmas. First therapy party. First birthday. Without him. Next month will be the first anniversary (do people call it deathiversary?). Thinking about it actually makes my heart feel full. I am so lucky…

I have had minimal contact with the outer physical world the past two days. That usually means my apartment’s a mess, my dog feels cooped up, and my dinners are sad. And everything’s fine! grateful for my loud dishwasher, my work team, not drinking, gel nails, ft, work from home, smoked salmon + avocado, Lancôme,…

I just might be done celebrating my birthday now. Jimmy, Steph, and tony were in town, which means I got to enjoy a special dinner with my dearest loved ones. I picked a really good spot this time (pez); The chef made me a custom risotto and It was delicious. Afterwards, more cake, presents, flowers,…

More birthday love today! My bestie neighbor came over with a strawberry cake candles ablaze. We shared a bottle of prosecco and life updates. I received tight hugs and more beautiful gifts. When it rains it pours. Also, today it felt like eddie was calling me from the heavens. My phone rang and the caller…

Birthday adventure complete. I went on a big group trip to Reno/Lake Tahoe. It was bea’s 50th, and I always just piggyback my birthday celebration on to her’s. She does all the planning and inviting—it’s great. We did a lot of fun stuff like happy hour on a boat, amazing dinners, poolside chillin’, and extreme…

I felt very emotional and thought about eddie a lot today. And this past week. Maybe It’s the time of year—almost one year since his passing; almost my birthday—but this grief business is no joke so there is always more to it. I’ve been feeling things that I didn’t feel before…like the anger stage of…

Today i lived a very adult life. To say “living my best adult life” would sound cliché, but it would be the truth. Gratefully golden. Grateful for brown sugar lattes, productive work meetings, unflavored chocho protein, sadly delicious bachelorette dinners, group trip planning, fresh berries, sweet beau, heart-melting body heat, big plumes of love. 2:21…

Hope you had a nice extendo Fourth of July weekend. Mine was all funnin’ and sunnin’. Friends and family of friends. I ate a burger as planned. Didn’t have to sit through any fireworks or drone shows. Yay. June flew and July is flying. Life changes fast. Hold on to your hats and meta glasses….

A near perfect day. A great day at work. A delicious dinner. A beer. A hot tub party. a good “diet” day. Grateful for Buddha bottle flowers, old school chivalry, so many friendly faces while walking on my block, honesty, YouTube algorithm, seeing so many 11:11s. 1:23 a.m.

been focusing on my diet and trying to ramp up cardio and strength training. Well, not so much the cardio part. I’m trying this new thing—eating tons of protein and tracking my intake on an app. I weighed my smoked salmon and Greek yogurt today. The mixed berries too. I never wanted to be this…

Grateful for all the texts I haven’t responded to yet, fage, mellow work day, emotional intelligence, comfort level high. 12:30 a.m.

Ten months since Eddie’s passing. !. Time has been flying. Healing is happening. Today at the cemetery I talked to a very nice man who lost his beautiful 21-year-old son eight years ago. I could tell his grief journey is different than mine even though both of ours are grounded in love. I can’t say…

been having some very nice days. mostly because work has finally slowed down and I was able to log off early enough to enjoy Baseball, beer, hot weather. I did some balance training exercises because my ankles felt too wobbly to ride a skateboard. Balance is like pto…use it or lose it. Today we hopped…

Spent my mom’s birthday weekend with family. I felt so relaxed and happy and I slept so much. Also met jimmy and Steph’s new dog (tony), picked up a strawberry shortcake, ate a filet, and discussed wedding plans with two different brides. Love and stuff is in the air. Grateful for diet sabotage, fur babies,…

Seems like things won’t be getting back to normal around here for a while. But at least it’s quiet. Curfew for adult citizens is still weird to me but it’s nice to stay in. Thinking about the 2020 covid lockdown. I loved it so much and because of the timing Of it all I knew…

Turning out to be a rough year for the city of la. Been holed-up inside and staying out the way of Anti-ice protests in my dtla hood. A lot of anger and frustration on my block. makes sense, but the graffiti is wack. I was safe and All is quiet now. No choppers, booms, or…

I was even more boring today. After dinner I fell asleep while watching dodgers. Game was a snoozefest but I was super exhausted. The week is going by fast though. And one of my favorite things I learned in college (and grad school) is that the weekend starts on Thursday night. See you at mcmurphy’s…

not sure what to write about. That usually means I’m unwilling to share what’s really going on in my life for whatever reason, But not so tonight. I worked a long day and didn’t do much else, so the truth is I’m just boring. Did I even talk to anybody besides work people and my…

Nothing major to report. Just working a lot. So much that I forgot that I was going to try to be a better boss and a good leader. Not sure if good leaders are supposed to be shrugging everything off… tonight I watched ugly betty, exercised, and did my nails. Some are jagged. I’ve Been…