Author: streetmadonna

i was emotional and didn’t get much of anything done. i recently found out that my friend Luke passed away two months before eddie did. It was a shock and i was sad. We worked together a long time ago and kept in touch here and there. Our conversations were always very good. He was…

Decluttering continues. Dylan and momopot stopped by to help with some of Eddie’s studio equipment. People always offer to help, but my friends actually mean it. i looked through a lot of old personal items that belonged to eddie. Birthday cards written to him by old friends and people he looked up to; photographs of…

i stopped by Lenny and taz’s place tonight to visit ripley. He is a very good boy with a sweet smile. He is very near the end of his life, and everybody knows this situation is the hardest part about having a dog. A small group of friends gathered to pet, hold, and console him,…

there is so much going on yet nothing to write about. I’m moving next month so I’m supposed to be decluttering, donating, selling, packing, cleaning. I’ve been lazy. There is a lot to do and lots of potential triggers to sort through. Some of it is sad; all of It is overwhelming. I am not…

exhausted. Soaking in the river of change is tiring. Grateful for q work days, new accounts, no funds but so rich, doggy dental care, Lysol, vitamins, color. 12:42 am.

My apartment has a plumbing issue right now. The kitchen sink is overflowing with stinky black sludge. I would have believed that the loud girls upstairs dumped black paint down the drain, but the plumber said someone else dumped a bunch of grease. really There’s only one rule when it comes to kitchen sinks. won’t…

happy new year. I’ve been on winter holiday vacation and I’m not ready for Monday return to work. The days off have been wonderful—lots of family, friends, foods, drinks, funnin’, etc. I didn’t set any resolutions for this year. Remember every year I try to do the splits and always get kind of close and…

Countdown to Christmas. I spent lots of time today wrapping gifts and tracking packages. Some won’t arrive until the 24th. Not sure what that means when giving and receiving gifts is my main love language. I always wait until the last minute, but there is a lot to say. i’m officially on Christmas vacation. Well,…

I’m up late because we went to Eddie’s work party. I had some anxiety before the event, but all was beautiful. Lots of hugs and people happy to see me and happier to see me happy. The love is strong. Grateful for therapy, good hugs, Dillon + Janice, tazcat, cupcake in a cup, pleather pants,…

i accomplished a bit of Christmas shopping. When you find a good deal on a nice gift that you think the person will love, do you also buy that same item for yourself? I did today. And now it is sold out. I guess I’m not the only one who loves a shiny ______. i…

I’ve been thinking about my future. Some masters say there’s no point in worrying about the future—only the present moment is real. I’m not worrying, I’m just trying to form a plan. Kind of a complicated plan. I need to move, I need to secure large amounts of money, I need to build body mass,…

Youtube says there are easy things you can do to make your body feel young again. I’ve been doing them—deep squatting, hanging on a pull-up bar, pushups. Also been eating like a bachelorette. Not lean cuisine. grateful for Taylor swift, Dewalt, sweet person, Zillow, lagwagon, my job, espresso, the present moment. 12:46 am

I haven’t been doing much lately. Been working a bunch, but outside of the office I’ve been pretty lazy. I have long to-do and shopping lists. Let’s say I’ve been resting. This morning, the apartment building manager sent an email saying there was free Starbucks in the lobby. i went downstairs in my pajamas and…

happy December. Can you believe it. I’ve been in the holiday spirit! Been watching Lots of holiday movies and shows, Attended a legit company holiday party, Been eating lots of junk and sipping peppermint mochas, And most importantly, got the Christmas tree up—it is fabulous. i miss eddie a lot and the other day I…

Happy thanksgiving weekend. I hope you got to enjoy time off work, good food, and friends/family. i am in Elk Grove. It is peacefully suburban with neatly paved walking paths and lots of green space surrounding big, newly constructed homes. it is also surprisingly rural because there are fields full of grazing cows just yards…

I went on vacation. To an unforgettable and special wedding. The most beautiful bride and the best vows I ever heard—they’re going to make it. I enjoyed Toronto family time so much. The greatest gift that eddie gave me is all the loving friends and family he brought into my life. Love lasts forever. Different…

Vote for me and WiFi will be fast, free, and accessible to anyone anywhere. I was shut out of My temporary office in the top-floor club room because it was reserved for a special event. So I set up a sweet workstation in the doubletree hotel restaurant. I enjoyed an overpriced salmon salad (20% service…

A full day of no WiFi in the apartment. And it’s great! This morning I packed up the laptop and portable monitor and set up office in the top-floor club room where the WiFi is good. I went back to my unit for a lunch break and coffee with my neighbor and then returned to…

happy 11/11. my WiFi has been down since the afternoon and it won’t be back until I receive new hardware. We’re talking days. I didn’t watch a single YouTube or a Netflix today. I Exercised, but not along to an app. I listened to Spotify through a Bluetooth speaker instead of my Alexas. I’m connected…

life is moving. The days are flying. The world feels different. I eat a lot. I never drive. I go to the doctor. a weekend of nonstop fun: met lance mountain and someone named hosoi or something, ate at red lobster, made new friends at the dive bar in Hawthorne, drank jägerbombs, shot pool, played…