Seems like things won’t be getting back to normal around here for a while. But at least it’s quiet. Curfew for adult citizens is still weird to me but it’s nice to stay in.

Thinking about the 2020 covid lockdown. I loved it so much and because of the timing Of it all I knew the universe loved me. I missed eddie a lot this week.

in other news, I will be making tiramisu for my mom’s birthday. But don’t tell her, It’s a surprise.

My stomach just made a funny, spiral noise that sounded a lot like the intro guitar to “what difference does it make.” Does that count as talent.

grateful for Bristol farms, memories, self-confidence, balance exercises, crow babies, Friday, freelancers, Tito’s, Chinese women, and not being the struggling guy.

1:01 a.m.

Turning out to be a rough year for the city of la. Been holed-up inside and staying out the way of Anti-ice protests in my dtla hood. A lot of anger and frustration on my block. makes sense, but the graffiti is wack.

I was safe and All is quiet now. No choppers, booms, or sirens. Niko looks relaxed. Do you think mayor Karen bass is asleep in bed?

In other news, we’ve been watching “chips” (*lowercase i*). The show still holds up!

grateful for the real deal, light weights, good decision making, working, shelf building, fresh vegetables, cuddles, June birthdays, sacred life.

1:12 a.m.

I was even more boring today. After dinner I fell asleep while watching dodgers. Game was a snoozefest but I was super exhausted.

The week is going by fast though. And one of my favorite things I learned in college (and grad school) is that the weekend starts on Thursday night. See you at mcmurphy’s after my antebellum literature seminar. Decades ago. We wore cheap shoes and never got tired.

i FaceTimed my mom. We say “I love you” before we hang up now. It’s a relatively new thing. People change; she tells me my dog is cute all the time now.

I’m still wading through the river of change. Physically for sure. Emotionally I’m good. Personality too. Financially… i’m rich just not in dollars. The river is calm where I’m at.

Grateful for my family, being accepted, nice shoes, healthy foods, invitations, quiet nights, morning texts, my limbs, and the sandwich I’m going to make tomorrow.

1:20 am.

not sure what to write about. That usually means I’m unwilling to share what’s really going on in my life for whatever reason, But not so tonight. I worked a long day and didn’t do much else, so the truth is I’m just boring. Did I even talk to anybody besides work people and my adorable pets?

i miss my mom and can’t wait to FaceTime her tomorrow.

grateful for good work stuff, cash back rewards, frozen foods party, max muncy, aer disc, all my bananas, and sweet dreams that come true.

1:39 am.

Nothing major to report. Just working a lot. So much that I forgot that I was going to try to be a better boss and a good leader. Not sure if good leaders are supposed to be shrugging everything off…

tonight I watched ugly betty, exercised, and did my nails. Some are jagged.

I’ve Been on a diet for about 3 weeks now. I lose a pound then gain two back by drinking lots of beer. tryin’ not to weigh three digits no mo’. Remember when Paul wall was obese.

grateful for Emma lovewell, Tito’s, grocery delivery, canned beets, no-meeting fridays, Potential broccolini, true friends.

2:17 am.

I just spent 80 minutes trying to finalize my Whole Foods and Bristol farms grocery carts. I bought cheese, you guys. Real, dairy cheese. A lot of decision making was necessary.

this is a short work week but it feels so long. The workload is heavy too. I need a proper vacay. Where we going. The truth is I’m traumatized by vacation planning, booking, and the idea of traveling. We canceled so many trips, most weren’t refunded. I’m even more traumatized by trip insurance. But I’m going. Away!

grateful for Cabot creamery, drew at the whistle stop bar, Niko the dog, my work team, my body, midnight snack, naps, and never felt lonely.

1:43 am.